不知不觉

我才发现，

已经是第44个主题了，

还写了不少啊~

由于才刚回马不久，

现在还是有点Jet lag

睡不着觉，就写部落，习惯性吗？

不经意的就打开了部落

或许，写部落是唯一的消闲吧 （可能吧）

也许，是时候找一个伴了（哈哈）

最近，和以前中学的一些死党喝茶，吹水

谈起以往的一切，还真的好笑

也感叹，自己已经不年轻啦~

还记得，少年时的乱

心中有一团火

做什么事都很 “冲”

其他的巡查员都乖乖的

我呢？做到差点和 “烂仔” 打架

还在Meeting时被学长警告

不是自夸，觉得当时的自己很有性格

在我管理的范围，都不会有什么麻烦

回味往事，起码，有点让自己有点骄傲

少年时，有段时间走失了

幸好，哥哥拉了我一把

把我劈头大骂，眼泪就掉下来了

第一次，真的第一次忍不住眼泪

整整有30-40分钟吧，

我没说一句话，我开不了口

说了一句 “给我机会，我会改的”

如果不是他，我不知道现在的我是怎样

心中，有一句话，很想告诉他

我有今天，真的因该谢谢你，哥哥

不是你，我绝对不是现在的 “Ruan”

UK的 ...

四个月 - 3/6 到 4/10
整整的四个月，
外国的月亮比较圆?
我真的不敢说是如此
不过，可以肯定的是
他们真的他妈的有礼貌
就算是不认识，也会对你微笑，点头
也学会了一个字，他们还蛮常说的
CHEERS

就好像代替了 “Thankyou" 这个字
无论在什么场合都用得着

可是谈及到美食,
那当然是大马的最好

几个月的时间,
感觉自己也变了很多
不知道是好事,还是坏事
人, 到一段时间
都会在改变,
思想, 态度, 脾气, 想法,等等的
当然, 我们都在成长, 对吧

有时, 有种感觉, 可能大多数 Summer Programme 的朋友都会觉得
时间太快, 很不够用
有些就觉得,太久太久了,想家了, 觉得还是大马比较好
我呢? 当然, 如果可以继续呆在国外, 我当然求之不得啦
是有原因的,
一个月的背包旅行, 真的让我大开眼界
Scotland - London - Paris - Brussels - Prague - Venice - Rome- Vatican City - Madrid - Palma Mallorca - Amsterdam - Sheffield
其实, 在还没踏入UK时,
就已经决定了要背包旅行
真的很难得的一次机会
在背包前, 就已经 expect 会非常的累人 (那是肯定的)
可是，真的很难得的机会可以在伦敦和巴黎一个人 “趴趴”走
本来和Wayne一起游伦敦和巴黎
可是，有机会我就和他分开走
很喜欢一个人到处走的感觉
自由自在，想在一个地方呆多久，都可以
那种感觉，很难形容
在 Brussels 更好玩了，
简直是一个人 “趴趴”走
拿着地图，虽然不是很会看地图
接下来，就跟着SengHoe一起走，
不一样的感觉，完全不同
开始学会了等待
等女生们化妆，少少也要一个多小时
等他们拍好照片，
看起来肥的，不行
不好看的，不行
背景有人的，不行
曝光的，也不行
真的花了不少时间
也开始意识到，背包不容易
self discipline and self awareness 很重要
也一度的 delay 了我们的行程
说真的，开始的时候
我还真的有些脾气，
不过，我都不会说出来

there are few places like Rome, Temple of Debod (Madrid) and Vatican City are quite impress myself, indeed
总觉得在 “罗马” 的时间很不够
还有些很值得去的地方，没有好好的去享受
好像在COLOSSEUM，花了大半天的时间
觉得真的值得了，再加上，当天是 “World Heritage Day”，入门时免费的
而在Vatican让我见识到最壮观的 Cathedral
可惜，时间不足
不然，我还希望多呆在Vatican City
还有Temple of Debod, 是我看过最美的日落
这是个Egypt  为了报答Madrid而建的一个庙之类的
这个地方，最值得看当然是它的日落，还有，在水面中，可以看到Building它本身的倒影
是一个一定要去的地标
当然，如果有时间，我会一一的把我Entire Europe Trip 的经验写下
当然，越早越好，记忆犹新嘛

Deadmau5, David Guetta, DJ Earworm

Deadmau5, one of the famous Dj, and he is the one i love most
one of my famous electro music is Ghost & Stuff
another one is Some Chord

this is the best way to release my pressure and i can feel amazing relax - Listen Deadmau5's electro music
i believe, most of the people dislike this kind of noisy music
i couldn't believe i will fall in love to Electro clubbing music
after i listen Ghost & Stuff and Some Chord, i starting to search other deadmau's home produced electro music from youtube
it's really amazing which can compare with David Guetta, he is also one of the famous DJ that feat with some of the top singers, the different of these two greatest DJ, i think Deadmau only produce the Electro music and David Guetta normally feat with the singers, which we normally can listen the songs at the FM & normally could found it in American Billboard
besides that, DJ Earworm also the top DJ ever in the world
he normally remix the top songs in the year
i believe most of the poeple listened that before
it's of course excellent to compose all the top music into one
DJ Earworm, David Guetta, and Deadmau, are definitely the top DJ in the world

不要问，好吗？

有些东西，不要问我好吗？
我永远不会回答，也不想听到
你觉得很好笑吗？我觉得很伤心
是什么原因都好，都不管你的事
大方 = 不介意？
我对什么事都可以不介意
就这件事
不要白目到以为很好笑
我可以告诉你，真的不好笑
我不懂，就很伤心
再也笑不出了

sad eh

just same as my status posted in my facebook "sad eh"
what i can do now is keep remember this emo feeling so that i wont forget this great lesson
don't simply mess around, just like my name "ruan"
deeply sorry does not help a thing
apologize is not the most appropriate solution
then what should i do
perhaps, do nothing at all
thing passed and alright, hopefully
what the fuck i had done
regret till the most but what to do for remedies
i hope i know how to make the things right
but i know i can't
just wait the things ends

"sad eh" must remember this great lesson
cause it's really sad to me

farewell for ruan

第二次的 farewell,

thank to all,
i'll be just fine in England for 4 months
i'll be right back
wait for me in the next gathering again
thank for all concern, all cares from you guys
unforgettable night
especially when you guys singing these song special for me
it's touching me so much
all of you, sing together
i never expect this, although i know it's my farewell party
after this section, we went to chow kit for ba kut teh
cos i am not able to eat for this few months
it make me really miss Malaysia foods so much
in the following months, i might need to cook myself
oh gosh, cannot imagine the taste of food which made by myself

sorry khang, not able to show up to my farewell
gotta some important matter on
so, hope got time to see you before departure

time blinks, time count down for few days
these few days, seng hoe did not show up
no doubtful, he sure enjoy his trip somewhere in UK or Europe after his final exam
i am expecting him while arrival to UK
i wish to buy some daily use or even foods at that particular day
or even, if got time, i wish to shopping
my most wanted Adidas Trefoil t-shirt
simple but i like it so much
as i planning to bring a few of custom which enough for few days
so that, it will not occupy my luggage space
since, i could buy lot of shirt in UK, why i bring so much for?
and of course, the price is cheaper than i buy in Malaysia, no doubt of that

thing goes fine
everything is just goes like planning
everyone said, enjoy your UK trip
and i would say "YES"
4 months
short enough? longer than i expect?
will be update my dot dot dot in my blog soon

Over Time

may be, just an excuse for us into another gathering of Drex, which is Farewell party for ruan, special thank to hong weng to organize this party on Saturday night.
i'd be grateful for all the attendee, mingshi, kenny, hongweng, pohyan, yen, pohkeong, siewteng, siewmun, alei, amanda, and meiyin

and then, Dialog's farewell party will be held on next tuesday, which suggested by miss chin, we will go for drinks again nearby the office area. feel warms working in Dialog, despite i am working only 2 month in there, they insist to make a farewell party for me before i am leaving.

yes, i will be stop my part time work on next tuesday, that's mean is the time for well preparing and planning for my traveling to England, i actually prepare nothing yet today. Especially the backpacking plan, i have no idea to any country to travel now, the Europe country. But, i believe that is not a huge obstacle for me and Seng Hoe

talking about seng hoe, alei joking with me, she can imagine the first meet of me and SengHoe in England soon, we surely will hug each other after the dismiss of almost half year. It would probably appear this scene when i got there, as when he is coming back from England last time, for preparing the Student Visa, we'd already did it in KLCC. he said "let's hug" and infront of lot of people, it's like OMG for me, but still, i did it. what to do, we are best Dude ever, LoL

anyway, still looking forward to our next gathering, CheongK section on next Saturday night, thank guys~