Ruan's theory

when i click on my previous blogs
just found that all were writing about the sad sad thing
you will see that theory
when one's happy, he will not click into his blog, there is no reason to open it
however, when one's emotional or not that "happy", he will start think something to write
lols, it's not Ruan's theory actually
just a lot bloggers do so as mine

started used to be write my thing on here
is that all we call it as "习惯性"?
sometimes, i really wish to write all about what im'ma thinking in my brain on my blog
just found that, when you really want to write it down
it seem all gone,
the idea, the everything that i think of in my brain,
it just gone away
it's really a good word to describe me "think too much"
though i don't like this sentence
but i had to admit it

give us an advice is that
don't over obsession on uncertainty, chasing for certainty
recently see a video clip in you tube
some of the old folks
and the story start with..
one of the oldie received a phone call
guess the conversation about one of his old old friend was passed away
saying a word "ha!" and stunning after received the call
another scene is five oldies were gather in a restaurant
gloomy and speechless
all of sudden, one of the oldie was knocked the table
and shout "let's go for motorbike!"
five of them, prepare for few months
doing the gym thing like youngster
5 of them have the different serious sickness
heart attack, diabetes and etc
they just ride the motorbike around for thousand mile
and finally, they reached a beach
re-call back of their teenager's scene
6 of the young boy, and a lady, the girl friend of one of them, and now the wife which has passed away
what the video inspiring of all man kind
may be, everyone absorb different thing
actually, i kind of funny when see those older were doing the gym for build their body
and they were on the motorbike like the mat rempit
just like what we saw it in the roadway in our country
but i feel truly touch from the bottom of my heart
it's amazing, wordless to describe
everyone own their dreams
the time passed and the LIFE forces us to drop down our "idiot" dreams away
because we have to live our LIFE, not just stress on our dream anymore!
cold water splash on you, WAKE UP FROM DREAM!
we might think, one day, one day i will pick my DREAM again
when we got the chance, we will say, maybe later?
until the day we cover by coffin, we will regret that we never chase for our dream while we still can
how good if we are now doing what we are dreaming to do

i saw a video, and it say
要嘛赶紧死..要嘛精彩的活着


when we're in a big trouble,
when our mind is like the end of the world
when we face the stress of work, or studies
when we are broke in a relationship
or even when u desperate and lost the faith on yourself
hold yourself for one minute
just one minute
think nothing on your mind
and you actually not in that "bad" situation if compared with others

another thing that i had learned somewhere
when you felt extreme frustrated to someone
and gonna or prepare to fuck him up
take a breath, turn around for 1 minute
eventually, you felt just nothing to shout on your friend
worthless to blame on these kind of matter
it's a part of my life now
but sometimes, i still will do complain on my blog
as long as i'm still a human being

突然之间

1.49a.m.
跟以往一样，很迟才睡觉
本来已经准备着睡觉，却想写写BLOG

他，算是个不错的朋友，就那种从小玩到大的朋友
人，很不错下，起码朋友有事了，会出来帮帮
可惜，好像没人领情
就感觉到他被人欺负吧
好像习惯性的，吃饭，他们都不付钱
就由他来付钱
真的，不是便宜的，一餐起码100+ 以上
我是说，起码..
有时，几百+ 都是没有人会去share
可能，真的没有人会觉得有什么不妥

relationship is fragile
building it up with a true mean
it may spending you a lot of time
somehow you can ruin in any second
we always see from among our friend
when a girl/boy has a boy/girl friend
the real friendship will shown on the table
what i want to say is
do you even remember how your friend treats you while you're in single relationship
and what do you give your friend in return when you're in double relationship
"thank you, thank a lot yeah, wa.. thank for what you have done to me"
these all bullshits will come out from your mouth
don't even fucking thank to your friend if it comes out with no true meaning
just save it and cut the fucking crap
people said, pisces  will think too much, sensitive emotional
yeah, i agreed, because what does it related my friend did not pay for the dinner money with the these
it does not related at all, it'd really gone so far away

com'on this is life, there is nothing fair in this issue
at least i believe there is nothing fair in the world, not here
when one day, a friend of you, starting have no topic to chat with you
or you found the relationship goes fade
don't even think you can do anything to color it
you can just recall back, what the best memories of yours
don't ask why, there is no reason

很多人告诉我，双鱼想的太多了 “你想太多啦”
其实，我不是很喜欢这样的说法
可能，我也对星座没有什么研究
可是，与其说我们想的太多
不如，说我们是用“心”去看

最近才觉得，乱 好像不会讲话了
常常问我的朋友，我到底是不是有什么 “语言障碍”的
乱讲的话，就只有自己明白
很常觉得，我表达不到我想要呈现的意思出来
所以只好静静的，静静的呆在那里
也希望，今年可以找到一个，
不用我多说，又可以理解我在表达我的意思的人吧
很难吧  xD