wee wang wang Merry Christmas

As usual, the Christmas Eve day will gather with -Drex-
small and simple steamboat party at mingshi's house will be a great thing on this particular day
almost all of Drex attend, except dolly, senghoe, joodee and hongweng
4 of them currently not at KL
and is quite normal, we exchange Christmas present each other
i bought a present which i think they will use it daily
it's cool! hope aley like it, the luckiest one who draw my present
special thank to a little girl accompany me to choose the present gift
walk out to sgwang, time square, and pavilion
and finally, get 4 present from there
it's a tiring day~

during preparing steamboat,
we chit chat about the current life
share the happiness, share the sorrow life
complain the thesis thing, complain the working life
here the shout out, there the laughing
i love the way we gather
there will be non stop talking, all of us
the foods are nice~ it's A LOT!
tomyam and normal soup served to us
3, 2, 1 ... Merry Christmas!
we count down for the coming Christmas
all were shout out, and the same time i call to Dolly,
so that we can count down together!
it end with the exchange gift section

the next day, another gathering in TBR for my Group E
it's a BBQ day!
hope will not nose bleeding as two days continue to eat such "hot thing"
at the time i went out to TBR, darius house
it started raining
thinking what a good timing for us LOLs
luckily it stop around 9pm
the preparing works are done by everyone
special thank to MK for preparing the spaghetti sauce
and Boss Jess bring along his Chivas, Black Label and Gold Label
he told us the "bao bei" of him already keep for 3 years
now the time he share out the alcohol to us
it's quite enjoyable with guys
drink, eat and play
and i saw you quite enjoy in the party
so happy to see you are happy
你快乐，所以我快乐
就是这句话吧~
we promised each other,
will do another exchange gift between us
only she and i
but today, i still haven't get the present yet
as my plan, i wish to put my present inside her beg
unfortunately, there are too many people walk in and out
there is no chance to let me do that so
just put beside her beg, and inform her that it is
hope she really likes it
and wonder, what she gonna give me

-End- and Merry Christmas

乱，累

累，除了累，还是累
在家，累功课，
在学校，累你，
昨天，
6点多才睡，
因为功课，
6点才睡，
因为陪她，
6点才睡，
在听音乐，
生活的节拍被你弄乱了，累了
乱，真的累了

最近，很红的新闻
Alviss 因为分手了，看不开
就这样离开了
14楼，就跳下来
离开了，最爱他的家人
把感情看得太重要了
4个月，才4个月而已
你真的很喜欢她吗？
如果，真的，
你一定不会这么做
你，就那么的潇洒离开了
每个人都在讨论
留下来的人，才是最痛苦的
你真的很伤吗？
想必，她现在比你所承受的，并不少
想想，你的姐姐
45分钟，看到你的FB留言
他一定很内疚吧
45分钟，好比一辈子了
你真的很爱你的姐姐吗？
现在的他，比谁都还要痛苦

“乱，你有想过自杀吗？”
有人问我，“一定不会”
我的答案，很坚定，毫无疑虑
如果，我有讲起我的妈妈，
我都会不自觉的想流眼泪，
我太爱我的妈妈，
绝对不会做什么来伤害她，
爱他，不用说出口，
他知，我知
就够了..

痛苦，就找人来谈
痛苦，就找人配
痛苦，不一定要一个人来承受
也不一定要选择离开
起码，我觉得，你很自私

听过吗？
爱一个人，
不一定要拥有
放手，不一定等于失去

真的累了，在写什么，并不重要，
我知道自己在些什么，就够了
累了，乱
乱，累了

dulan? or jealous

dulan? 还是妒忌？
就其实心很不爽


对他好，很好，非常好
他的反应很就很残忍
就说不要当好人，
永远都不要
不是好人，不就很好吗？

保持沉默

保持沉默
不会问为什么
不是任何事都有其原因
有些事发生了
就不要问
我选择保持沉默
一贯的作风
我没有做错
可能，你比较敏感
还是，我想太多？
无路如何，
任何感情都在变化当中
无需要太在意
不是残忍
而，我根本都控制不了
有时，我深信
人生就像写好了的剧本
无论，你怎样想改变结局
最终，我们都会一步一步
迈向那个本来已经拟定好的剧本

人定胜天，还是听天由命
起码，在这件事上，
我选择了听天由命，
继续保持沉默
无伤大雅
没所谓的 谁不能失去谁
对我来说
对你好，根本不需要理由
希望，在整件事上，是我想太多

够了，真的够了

another new song by Far East Movement feat with Ryan Tedder, member of OneRepublic, after Like a G6 - Rocketeer, a repeated song for today, Sunday

a moody Sunday night after visiting my friends in MU
how to describe this feeling
why it come so sudden?
can You (emotional) let me to be prepared before it come, okay?


原来一个人很寂寞
就连 Emo 都是一个人

乱了

Okay, just let me calm myself to continue Blogging,

i've been write and undo, repeating few times, as my brain cannot concentrate to think anymore

the feeling held by now, is totally suck feeling

thinking back in few hours, i was feeling great to enjoy with my friend in full house for celebration,

but why, now i feeling so sick

step into my house, the sick feeling grow slowly,

there is an empty house, with no one to talk to

i guess, i been lone for a long time

it's the time now

for me to change my lifestyle

i deadly need a company, a She to be with me

那么远，这么近

have You ever know this meaning?

when you think she is far away, but actually she is only around with you,

but You just cant notice her, only when she left you

you found her importance to you

那么近，那么远

yet, she is around with you but the feeling of both is not connected

this is what i meant now,

she is so near to me, but the feeling of us like so strange

nobody willing to step in, come forward

both scare to be a loser

may be,

the win win situation is remain silent,

remain the current relationship

not to change, not change anything

just remain, untouchable

but i know, is too hard to me to do that

i am struggling, try some methods to come closer

"the heart get closer and closer"

will it does work?

i just don't wanna ruined the relationship that i built up, for a moment already

the sad case, i hope will not repeated this time

i asked her, can you trusted me?

i am implied to her, will you giving time to me,

let me understand you more,

and you understand me more,

do you really get this meaning?

trust me, I'm not a good man

忽冷，忽热

我接受不了

乱的心乱了

我不想想了

我不想输了

其实，我一开始就输了

我败给了自己，败给了乱

喜欢童话，

因为只有在童话里，

我们可以听到圆满的结局

乱，乱了

opts happiness, opts sorrow

SS, i know u will read this,
so i rather to write it here instead of telling you all the things

还记得这首歌吗？
快乐是自找的，不是你给我的

就像这首歌，
我们选择快乐，不快乐
不是他可以给我的，
而是我自己要的，
既然选择不快乐，
就无需要掩饰着悲伤，
即使选择快乐，
就尽情的去享受开心的每一秒

记忆不可以消除，
但却可以淡忘掉，
只是时间的关系，
开心，不开心，
自己去决定吧，
无需向其他人去说明，
希望，你对自己可以坦白
清楚知道，明白你要些什么

做朋友的，不用多说
就永远的站在你身旁
你要我静静的听，
我就静静的聆听，
你要我给意见，
我就给最好的意见，
你要我弄你开心，
我就会讲最冷，最好笑的笑话

we are just ordinary person,
but still, we can opt for the happiness, we can opt for the sorrow
we decide it
never ever let him to decide Your happiness or sorrow
be clear what You want now

if let say Ruan has a purpose of writing this blog to SS,
or if there is a purpose of caring SS,
i guess, the only reason to clarify is because i care you as my friend
nothing much, as i not really like to see the friends' sad faces
i opt to be happy, what is your choice?
so what your choices?
would You like to opt to be happiness? or ops to be sorrow?